hello web!! despite having the worst hangover in ages i'm super stoked to write that i finally finished my short comic "The Fjord House"! it ended up being just about 50 pages and now i just need to figure out how and when to post it online, I'm thinking the end of this month? almost can't wait to share it...:)

going through a lot recently...but in some way it's like i finally crossed a sea and now i'm ready for a new and entirely different journey by land.

went to another concert today with Fallulah, my first true love when it comes to music. her first album was the first CD i bought for myself when i got my first paycheck, her most recent album is when i decided to switch to vinyl. She did a cover of Hollow Talk by Choir of Young Believers whose lead singer passed away suddenly last year. it moved me to tears...

Feeling a bit silly looking back at my last post after watching the Bunker (2001), and seeing how the game is more than a little inspired by the setting!! regardless, I think the game still has that emotional level on a grand scale that you rarely see in horror. as in, not building horror from the gore of war, but maybe building horror from the despair of war? I replayed a machine for pigs which I was not terribly fond of the first time (maybe because i, like many others at the time of release, expected something very similar to the dark descent), but the narrative really struck me in a different way this time, and I might've gained a new fondness of it.

Other than that... I'm enjoying being back at university, I like the people and the work, and I'm more motivated than ever to write. It'll probably keep me busy for a while. I'm also picking some art projects up again, trying to get some of them done bit by bit. really just taking everything at my own pace. But I've definitely grown a bit over the last year, almost as if I'm 10 years older suddenly. small things don't bother me much, I feel like I can approach people with openness, I feel like I have energy to interact with the world and see beauty in it. strange how much that's changed. I've been told I look happier, someone who just met me thought I was incredibly extroverted (lol. me?)

oh, a final thing, slowdive's newest album is one of the best things i've heard in a long time. I could say a lot of things about how it makes me feel so nostalgic and calm and hopeful during my morning commute when the train crosses the bridge over the sea and the sea and sky seem to blend together, but instead I'll point to this pitchfork article which says a lot of lovely things about the album that I wasn't able to come up with:)

Summer surely passes fast...in just two weeks I go to uni...again... Hopefully this time it pays off and I never have to work on another degree again.....

I guess I'm pretty happy overall. I feel like I grew up a bit over the last few months... and Ive been working as an assistant for an art curator, I never thought I'd get to work with art <:)

I think I'll use this entry to write about two pieces of media that really altered my brain chemistry recently. The first is Nolan's Oppenheimer, if anyone reading this knows me they know I'm a fan of everything Nolan has made, and although I don't think Oppenheimer is his best work (the trial sucked. no artistic vision i feel. my humble kinophile opinion) it hasn't left my mind at all. the quantum revolution is one of my favourite topics in the philosophy of science and seeing the emotional side of these discoveries portrayed so well and on film... mindblowing. I might watch it a third time.

the other piece of media was the new Amnesia game which takes place on the Western front of WW1 and. huh. whoever thought of this setting for a horror game was a genius. What's more dreadful, the supernatural horror going on down below, or the war going on above? I loved the brevity of the game and the complete hopelessness of the setting, Tarmia on the soundtrack which I haven't stopped listening to. Another frictional master class in how to do horror, but even more so a master class in how to do despair. I've never cared much for WW1 despite being a historian because it really felt just like that: pointless. but that really is the lesson to take away from it, isn't it??

so yeah- recent media consumption off my chest. I've been so inspired to read up on the two particular periods since then, and that has taken up most of my time besides work :'D maybe I'll do book recommendations for my next post. who knows.

Just wanna talk about live music these days! maybe because festival season is around the corner and for once i was able to get a festival ticket :) I realised I've been to about two concerts a month this year which I'm actually really happy about- I have so little money to spend but for once I'm prioritising going out and enjoying myself over everything else, even if I have to go alone. which I did today, Greenlandic band Nanook, such a blast! I don't speak a word of Greenlandic but a lot of people in the audience did, and the vibe was great. (also their lead singer is very handsome)

I might be switching jobs soon so hopefully much more live music for me after the Summer, where I'll also start studying again. Definitely hasn't been easy recently but seems like things are getting a bit better!

Back already with...site updates! I made the site slightly more mobile-friendly, updated the about-page, new header and button, but MOST IMPORTANTLY I updated the projects page with all the stories I'm working on, including a whole page dedicated to my TTRPG character drawings (mostly for me i guess but whatever) so go check that out!!!

Long time no diary entry! I have a physical diary as well so I don't have much practical need for this blog, but it's nice to update it once in a while.

I'm waiting to hear back from a university programme I applied for, but I'm not sure I actually want to be admitted...I feel pretty lost about what I want to do or who I am. I want to commit harder to art but I'm still learning how to really express myself. I'm thinking of getting into printing zines, I have some personal things I think would be interesting to tell in zine format. Currently I'm working on and off on a short comic about the meeting between a human and a zombie, this is the first page

I'm not pressuring myself to finish it in a certain timeframe, but I've made decent progress and looking forward to publish the full thing...! It's nice to have a smaller project to work on, I put a lot of effort into a long-form webcomic that I wasn't entirely ready for, so if I get to finish a comic project it'd be a really big step for me.